Okay, time for something happy! lol, I just noticed that like my last six posts were depressing, which is misleading, because I'm not actually depressed at all. I mean, life has valleys and mountaintops, but I don't know why it is that I tend to focus on the valleys so much. Valleys are more dramatic, there's more to say. Mountaintops don't need an outlet so much. I'm NOT emo, I promsie! lol.
Anyway, I love going to school and I've met a few people and I'm learning to work the system, which is very different from Highschool but not really any harder. I have a car and a cell phone! Name suggestions for the car are welcome. For those who missed the description, it's a maroon '88 Toyota Camry with a sun roof and it's in perfect condition. I don't even know how to begin being thankful for it. I hadn't even started wishing for a car yet. I didn't have to spend a cent on it.
I miss people alot, but it's amazing the strength God has given me to deal with lonlieness. It seems like there was a point somewhere in my past when I started carring, not in any particularly virtuous way, but just carring about life in general, and since then life has been a wild, crazy ride. I constantly fall down, and there are all of these supports that I depend on, clinging to desperatly, just to keep standing. When you're so dependent on things life is crazy.
Of course I'm not completely beyond that, I doubt I ever will be, but lately I feel like all the bumps and curves and twists are leveling out and everything I was clinging to just to stay upright is gone, and -wow- I'm actually standing on my own now. I keep thinking of those things I once needed for support as though they're still there, or at least still supporting me, and when I realize that they're not I suddenly feel dizzy again. But I don't fall. At least not as often; not as hard.
I really love the rain. My spirits always soar in the winter- as much as I love Summer, it doesn't get better than this. And the best part is that Julia is comming to spend the night after Prayer Meeting. :-)
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
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I feel so bad for not commenting on your last post, but there wasn't really much I could say.
so now I'll just comment on this one. :P
Sarsparilla. or Timri. those are my votes. See, just calling a car "rilla" sounds cool. and we could have a substitute Timri.
the rain is about the awesomest thing ever invented. and puddles are almost as cool. I think rain brings out the good side of everyone, even the people who grouch about the rain because they can grumble about it and let off excess steam that might be used to grumble at somebody. I always start getting childish around the rain. Satisified, almost. who needs anything else when you can jump in puddles?
I'm glad you're happy, Em. Who's Julia? That little adorable girl who adores you and is your hero?
Hey, you still haven't written out what you think I could be like when I am an adult like you did two posts ago for alot of other people. Please?
hey, people, visit my blog........ please!
if you name my car i'll name yours.
i don't love rain that much, i love the world after the rain, when all the colors come out, and there's this smell or nonsmell or cleanness about everything, even poets have a hard time explaining it.
working the system! yessss
glad you're up on your own.
I agree with Sam...after the rain is awesome. I want it to be after the rain at 3:00 today when I have to golf.
And I LOVE Sarsparilla. I vote for that!
timri! we can't name my car timri, we named the horse timri!
sarsparilla, does that really sound like something i would name my car? it's an old red thing, anyway. not a sarsparilla at all. no offence, but.
that's a great idea sam. you can name my car. but you have to meet it first.
yes, that julia. lol.
i don't like it when it stops raining as much. i like it when it's pouring. and puddles are the best. of the best of the best.
where did sarsparilla come from anyway?
I like it's when it's raining, but then I sometimes start worrying about things:
Are the rabbits okay?
Did I clean up the back yard?
etc. etc.
But when it's care free, I love the rain. I makes me feel all cozy inside. I also love to go outside and get soaking wet. Then come in dripping and probably not cold, and have Mom get midly upset because I'm dripping everywhere and my clothes are wet.
(Haven't done that for a while)
Yes, me to Anna, I never commented either.
Julia is SO cute . . . :) Yes Emily, you have to write a description for Michaela I saw mine, and I love it.
I like it best when it is actually raining, like a big downpour. After the rain is very nice to, but otherwise, when it is drizzling, or when it is all wet . . . I'm not as drawn to that.
well you guys don't have to golf in it...*pouts*
The best of the best of the best, sir!
Look at this: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sarsparilla
Otherwise, think "root beer"
lol
sounds like a plan.
okay, i'll write a description for mj sometime. and one for caitlyn.
OH, you mean THAT sarsparilla! why yes Anna, you are a genious.
But eh, I'm not even going to try to talk my way out of it, I want Sam to name my car. It's just a Sam sort of job. lol.
haha I think Em is right on this one. I will go to Sam when I get a car, in 20 years or so. lol
I really don't know how I feel about rain. No, really. I'll think on that one and get back to you.
Well as long as you're still depending on God sounds like you're doing pretty dandy! Sorry, that sounded, bad. Ugh. I haven't talked on here forever I've forgotten how to speak. Hold my hand while I get my balance.
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