You know what I realized the other day?
I don't want to write fiction.
This is an astronomical (I just leaned that word- did I use it correctly?) revelation. I started wanting to write fiction when I was like five years old. But the older I get, the less and less pleasure I get out of it. It gets harder, too, as my expectations for myself get higher. Even my grades for various school papers suggest that fiction is not my strong point.
This doesn't mean I don't want to write... just not fiction.
When I was younger I lived in these worlds I would create in my stories. Really seriously- it was my escape. I honestly hatted life... in comparison it was so borring.
Not so anymore. Ha. "Seventeen" and "borring" do not belong in the same sentence. And as I've moved slowly, over the last couple of years, to take my place in the real world, I have fallen in love with it. The setting is so lively, the characters so colorful, the plot so complex, and the Author so profoundly creative.
That, and I really really really want to change the world. I want to stand up and stir things up... present the world with ideas and convictions and morals... make people think and change lives.
Not that it can't be done in fiction... I just can't do it in fiction. I don't want to do it in fiction.
Allthough maybe, someday when I'm old and wrinkled, I'll write the story of my life. Cuz there's a whole bushel of lessons to be learned there!
Friday, January 05, 2007
My High School dreams are gone
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I wish I could write. I've been thinking of a plotline. I find I think of tons of things that, in my oppinion, could make a good story. So I'm trying to write down some of those ideas. And while it fun to make a plot, I don't know if I could actually write it. But I might try.
One problem is I realy have never written anything, just for fun. Well, there were two things. But other than that, nothing.
I think it is fine to not want to write fiction. There are lots of other great forms of books.
i'm going in the exact opposite direction. more and more, i believe i want to write fiction someday.
interesting perspective though. i really think you show a lot of promise in the stuff i've seen you write, and i think grades should be the last indicator you should use. grades can be silly.
what would you write about?
Eowyn, I could see you writing books like the Grandma's Attic books- simple and heartwarming. Sure, you could do it no problem with enough practice. Your Elsie story proved that.
I could see you being a big name novelist, Sam. Writing those long, complex impressive novels that you like so much. May not be my personal favorite type, but I've no doubt that you would make it interesting.
lol.... now I'm wondering how I ever thought I could not write fiction. The bug is back, and it's redoubled it's attack. But the kind of fiction I want to write has changed. The whole epic-movie type of writing really doesn't appeal to me anymore. I wanted the stardom that came with that- now that's gone and I want to change lives more individualy and personaly through my writing.
Funny Em. I'm totally opposite of you in your original post (maybe we're the same again now...), I used to love the real world, and now my fiction is my escape. I continually see the good in people, but the overall ugliness of the world, and when I'm seeing only ugliness I hate it, and I escape to my fiction. I guess I identify more with you Sam. I am so convinced that I want to be a writer (most likely fiction), and I'm trying really hard to work at it, so I don't finish high school and be like, what now?
I'm glad the bug's back though. When do we get Duplicitus & Dragon Part II?
Oh suggestion Eowyn, if you have really good plots but don't think you can write them, send them to a book-writer who will take your plots and write them for you. My movie thing fell through for the PotC movie we were gonna do, and I considered making it a book, but I'm having so much trouble getting Jack on paper that I think I almost might try it. However, I think you have a real talent for script-writing, from what I saw in your movie thing. I loved that!
Sam, you should post something that you've written, or a plot line you have or something.
oh, bugaboo. i suppose, sometime, i could post something i will write for creative writing this quarter. maybe you guys could help me out.
Thanks Verya . . .
Ribbons, I don't know if you know, but Verya read our entire Journey to Home Script, because I took an excerp from it for something we did in co-op once, and she wanted to read the whole thing.
ha. I'm still deep-as-ever in love with fantasy and epic movie writing. and I fully intend on writing my own epic movie story someday.
I already have the beginning and the end, I now just have to work on the middle.
but I've given up trying to write fanfiction. it's stopped working for me.
Everyone I know is so talented . . . writing this, writing that.
writing isn't really a talent, it's more of a habit. once you get into it, you can't stop. and once you start doing it more and more, you start getting better at it.
anna, anna, anna. of course writing is a talent. don't be ridiculous.
more than anything else though, it relies on how you think.
Writing is a talent and a habit. You can be totally untallented at it, but still love it, and it becomes a talent. And there are the people who have such great talent but don't like to write, and so don't use it.
Eowyn you have tons of talent, even if you don't think it's in writing, it might be in other places.
I have to agree with verya-writing is both, but it is also a way the writer thinks, or the ability to put that on paper. It isn't just making up a story and writing it down. It's definitely alot more than that.
Beth, I'd say you did really well with the script, a couple things I would do differently... but then, I'm not you.
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